I had a miserable life; it’s only me who knows how hard I’ve passed thru this miserable life. What can I tell you?... I don’t believe in God anymore. At least he doesn’t exist for me anymore. There is nothing left for me in this world. It seems that there is no place for me in this Universe anymore. I’ll never understand why God creates me. He maybe did that only to have the satisfaction to torture me on this earth. I don’t understand why that miserable “mother” of mine gives birth to me at the first place. Maybe she did that just to have a profit on the work of her own children and to make fun of their life. I had enough suffer for all the trouble that I had to pass until now. That miserable mother of mine spent all my money and made my life miserable when we lived together at the same apartment. I was living in a total stress and in a continually scandal. She let me with a lot of debts. After she collects the money from my work, she stole the house and kicks me out of it, telling me that I will not live the day to see her again. So, on top of it, she wished my death too, not to mentioned that I had an acute anemia in that time and I was walking alone in the streets in a full winter season, because she kick me out from home. My four dogs that I love so much remained with her, of course. So, I couldn’t have them either, to be with me, when I most need somebody around. I had only pass thru this shock of my live, after she kick me out from the house, that appears in my live Florin Stefan, the so called vocalist of “ Noi ” band. I say that because the instruments men don’t know how to play with their instruments and he can not manage to bridle his band. Florin insists to enter in my life, even if I didn’t want to have nobody around, do not suffer again. He assured me that he will never make me suffer again but of course that never happened. He induced me to take a house with a bigger rent, so like that the debts were increased every day. He let me pregnant and then left me with the debts and waiting for a child too and he came back to Constanta. After all he took me to his mother house, but the troubles were bigger and bigger every day. I was in a permanent stress, even if I was pregnant; his family didn’t care about it. They didn’t care about me, even if I’ve made the cleaning in the house, I was honest, and I’ve tried to make his house and band to go on. Nothing counts for them. He and his family insults me, they treats me miserable, just like my mom did, and finally, because I have denied to work on their hotel in Costinesti, because I was pregnant, and after that I couldn’t because the operation. One of the owners of that hotel is Florin’s uncle, and his mom works there too as a director, for a very small amount. His mom and his aunt considered to be good if we get separated, and that was in a very short time after my child died, and I was operated for caesarean. They simply kicked me out of their house. Florin didn’t want to go with me, to support me after all that they did to me, and after they complicate my life. His mother tried to find reasons to make us fight, but she was the one who creates this situations, because she always make me talk with him and tell him to find a job, but he didn’t want it, and she was blame it on me. His mother did that on propose, because she knew that this makes him angry, and like that she succeed on separate us. They also kept a dog that I love very much. So, from my five dogs I don’t have neither one around me. Not to mentioned that I have no children. I buried two girls until now. Well, I had to pass thru a several shocks, and now I am alone, with so many debts, without a house and with a damaged soul. Why should I want to live in this horrible live? I can not go on financially, professionally or familiarly specking. Anything I try to do, that is nothing that I can do well. It seems that the trouble is chasing me everywhere I go. These four people, that bastard mother of mine, Florin, his mother and his aunt destroyed my soul and my life. These are the people with bad souls that I’ll never forget, neither after my death!!!  All I’ve said here is real. The side of story that the people from my mother blood or Florin’s blood will say, is a huge lie. The only persons that were around me when I most need them were my brothers, my father, my vocal singing teacher and my three girlfriends of mine, who know that all I’ve said in here is perfectly true. Anyway I hope that some day all the people that hurt me will pay for it!!!!!

And I didn’t say all that Florin did to me when I was pregnant. He punched me in my stomach and in my head until I was fainting down on the floor because of the kicking’s. He always asked me why I came into their house, but they didn’t thought that they left me with a lot of debts and pregnant in Bucharest, and that I had no place to stay there, because he didn’t want to take a job and then he run away to Constanta, on his mother’s initiative, even if she knew that her son made me rent a house to live together witch costs very much. Every day Florin armed a scandal, and that makes me almost lost my child on six month of pregnancy and I had two bleedings on a day. I couldn’t go to a doctor before because of them, even if I insist to go every day. I knew that I need medical assistance, not to mention that I stopped taking vitamins. They buy me vitamins only when I was in a very bad condition. In another occasion when he drives me to the hospital, he was very nervous. While he was driving he shift the wheel and he use the brake all of a sudden, while I was telling him do not do this again, because I can loose the baby, but it didn’t cont to him. After that I was bleeding. In that day, after he left me at the Military Hospital in Constanta, he go back, and I left without any money, without battery on my mobile phone and without knowing his address, and he knew that very well, but this didn’t hurt him at all, like didn’t hurt him that I was in five month of pregnancy and out side it was raining. I was sitting there for a half day until some people found me and took me with there car, and I could call his aunt from their mobile phone, to ask her to pick me up. Now, you can judge for your self, what kind of soul they could have? His mother knew all of this, but she didn’t do anything. She was never pleased with me, even if I was doing the entire job in their house, I was working everyday in their yard when they build a room in their. Not to mention that they maid me stressed day by day, and his mom was the one who was complaining that she is ill, that she couldn’t carry on with the scandal anymore. Then why she didn’t tell to her son to take a job instead of make me work and safe me of stress? Not to mention that I was eating very little, because they didn’t have so much food in their home, and also because so many times I was feeling bad to eat, mean while they always  reproach me that I didn’t have a work and no money. But I couldn’t work in any place being pregnant, because I only tried to keep safe the baby, but they didn’t care about it. Every day they reproach me that his mom had many debts, but it was not my fault that they didn’t want to build the fifth room, and Florin didn’t want to take a job!!! Anyway, I think that they want me to loose the baby, mostly because after my baby’s death Florin was bringing his friends in the house, they listening music very loud, they were smoking, drinking coffees and laughing, meanwhile I was devastated because me baby was gone, and I waned peace, but I was forced to hear that music and their laughing. His mother accepted everything, even if I told them so many times that I can not stand this situation anymore, but Florin started to treat me worse and worse every day, that some day he told me that I’m should not doing anything in their house, do not touch anything, that is to say that I should go, because I was extra. Finally, they create the situation in such a way that it starts a big scandal and like this they had the motive to kick me out from their house, threatened me that they will thru my things out in the street, meanwhile I was desperate because I didn’t have a place to go!!! It was awfully. I don’t wish this to anybody! I wonder, how Florin and his mother can sleep in the night, how they can eat, knowing that because of the stress my baby died, she didn’t grow as she should grow, because I was delivered her too soon, and she couldn’t resist. Finally it was also the fault of the doctor from Emergency Hospital from Constanta, because she let a mother who has flu to suckle her baby in the same room where it was mine too. If my baby grow enough and I could delivery her in nine month, she could live now!!! This is the cruel reality, that hurts me very much, and I don’t know how and when I can pass thru this shock!!!